At this moment in time I really really don't want to move. I feel as though everyone is pushing away from me. People in my ward, friends, etc. And I am really not liking it. It's not like I'm going to be gone forever. I feel so sad and I don't want to lose my friendships. *sigh* I feel so lost and akward. I'm here in Orem and then I go up there and I just feel akward. I feel like I don't live anywhere. I feel like I should be somewhere in the middle of here and there. I feel like I live in Salt Lake, but yet I don't have a house there, and I haven't even been there for a while. Nothing in my life is really staying the same. I wish things would stay the same. I wish I could just finish high school here. I wish so many things that aren't going to come true. Oh why does it have to be like this? I was at my cousin's house the other day and was looking in her yearbook, trying to see what people I would be going to school with next year. Then last night I was looking in my yearbook and was saddened my the thought that there were so many people that I haven't met and gotten to know, and I never will. Well I hope everyone else is having fun.